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It's times like these that really make me appreciate the people that are still close to me. I've done a lot of shitty things to the people I care about over the past few years. I regret a lot of it to be honest but at the same time I don't. How can you regret something that changed you and helped make you a better person? I don't think you can.

The first step is admitting you have a problem.
So here it goes....
I HAVE A PROBLEM
saying that has never felt so good. For once those aren't empty words, it's a good feeling.

I don't really know how to deal with it but I'm working on it. Tenley tells me I'm making progress but even she doesn't know the half of it. Maybe one day I will be comfortable enough in my own skin to shed light on all of what I have built up inside. Until then, I'll manage just like I have been.

To everyone I've ever hurt, I'm truly sorry. Most of you didn't deserve it and for those of you who did, I'm still sorry. I should have been the bigger person rather than joining you in the gutter.

There are just some "memories" that will forever be burned into the back of my mind. My past haunts me most days, today being one of them. I'm sure seeing a certain someone this morning didn't help the situation, mostly made it worse. Certain demonds you just can't fight off.

Because sometimes, there just aren't enough rocks.

"You say, you say that we're all tied up And wrapped around in useless, states of mind But at the same time we're still young We have the time to realize that we were wrong"