Faith in Love

your soft heartfelt voice whispered slowly, "we're going to be ok."

I shook my head yes, that's all I could do. I have so much faith..

faith in love, you, us, myself.

You once asked me if I had ever felt invincible

Saturday night, laying in my bed, your hands caressing my face..

the words ,"it's you, it's always been you" fell from your lips

as you pressed them against mine...

Well, my answer is yes. I have felt it.

For the first time in my life I know what it's like

What it's like to feel something real, to really be alive

This was it, nothing could hold me back or get in my way....

I wouldn't trade it for anything. Not a single thing.



Sometimes you have to lose yourself to find yourself again. I'm just glad that you gave me the chance to do so. You'll never know the extent of my gratitude.


Being in love is the best feeling one could ever hope to experience. Looking back, maybe everything that we encountered and all the experiences we had were meant to happen. Maybe we needed this. I'll never let you slip through my fingers again, not if I have it my way. I've learned so much from this. It's safe to say we've both made dumb mistakes but that's what love is all about. Making mistakes and loving someone for who they are, flaws included. You've made me such a better person. How do you explain a feeling of such great measure? I wish I could attempt to summarize it for you but I know I don't have to because you feel the same. I love you. Then, now, always. It's always been you kid, it always will be you.

Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I just can't

leave this kid alone.

He had my heart a year ago and he still has it despite the fact that I keep telling myself he doesn't. Who knows what is in store for us but no matter what...

It's always going to be you
It always has been you...



I just love this picture. It reminds me of the carefree times we use to have when we first met. <3

Biggest realization ever

words are meaningless as fuck. I just realized a lot while sitting at work today and you know, I can honestly say....I am completely happy with the way things turned out. I've wanted this for a long time and I finally have my freedom back. I wont give that up for anyone, ever again. You've changed a lot inside of me and I don't know if I will ever forgive you for the negative influence you have had on me. I'm ok and I am going to be ok. I know who I am and what I want and this isn't it.

He was right, I'm so much better off. It's funny how life happens sometimes. Ohh but I am so glad this chapter in my life is over and a new one is starting! (: There was a reason this played out the way it did and I wouldn't give it up for the world.

You saved me.


"Why me?" you asked. To be honest, I can't even begin to tell you. It was just a caught up in the moment kind of thing. I wasn't lying to you when I said,"As much as I want this, I'm just not THAT girl." I don't regret anything I just wish it was under different circumstances. You're a really great guy despite the common misconception of a lot of people. You've been there for me through a few hardships that I have had recently and I can't thank you enough for that. You've been my saving grace and I guess that's why I enjoy your company so much. It's nice knowing someone cares enough to listen....I haven't really had that lately. <3

It's just you and I

against the world

with nothing to prove

and nothing to lose


Those words whispered never meant so much <3
You're right, I'm so much better off now.
Ohh my there is just something about you...






Honestly, I'm done and over it and want nothing to do with you.

you

Just made my day!

You're just full of surprises aren't you?

<3

You were fake, I was great

Nothing personal



Sometimes you have to step out of character every once in a while and just let loose.

Thoughtless decision making is kind of fun. ;)

Livin' it up babbby and I've never felt better!





I'm walking, who's laughing now? I'm wasted, wasting time; you talk for hours but you're wasting lines, a pretty face but the chase ain't worth the prize

You're only young once

I'm just looking to have fun

and so far I am having a great time.







Everyone makes mistakes and Y O U are mine.

EDIT;;;
After last night I realized that you are a lot like me. I'm glad we talked about everything. No mistake; just a new connection and I'm happy about the choices we've made thus far.

Pause

Step back and take a look around..

You ever feel like you are all alone
even when you're in a crowd?

I'm so emotionless these days

I just don't feel anything at all.

Just smile and pretend...that's what I'm good at.

I'm having fun being single but I don't think the world is ready for it. It's way to dangerous.


I swear I'll take this to my grave before I ever speak of your name.

real vs fake

It's so hard to tell what is real in my life anymore. I'm happier than ever these days but I guess that's just because I lie to myself to stay that way. Well it's working and all these pills can go fuck themselves. I refuse to take them.

Even looking in your eyes feels wrong. Why do I want it to feel right?

Also, it's rather annoying how careless people are these days. Someone hit my car and now i have a dent in my passenger side door. What an asshole. I wonder how things would be if I was so careless in my actions. The world couldn't handle me then, it barely deals with me now as it is.

I've made some new friends recently and well they are alcoholics to say the least. It's pretty shitty when someone puts alcohol over you. Never again kid, Never again. You get one fuck up and you made yours already. I hope it was worth it.

Girls like me don't happen often, realize who I am and what I have to offer and please, please don't waste my time.


God, please give me some clarity. I can't take walking through this dense fog much longer.

I deserve better

that's all i'm saying. I'm not dumb kid, just know that.



P.S. I've missed having this kind of fun with you, it's been awhile. I hope it lasts.


You're right, I'm s c a r e d

Dear Nicole;

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!

Love,

self

He's such a smooth talker

He tells me everything I want to hear

BUT

It takes more than words to get me baby.



FOR ONCE I WANT SOMEONE TO SHOW ME WHAT I MEAN TO THEM
and not by doing what they do for every other girl

What now?

I don't even know how to react to this.

I'm such a mess.

I love you kid, I hope you know that.

I will pray every night...you have to get better.

You have to..

I will always stand by you.

We will go through this together, no matter what.

I guess the hardest part to this is knowing there is nothing I can do and it sucks, a lot.

Scorpio

Wednesday, Jul 8th, 2009 -- The Moon's entry into your 4th House of Roots can take you back to your childhood, but don't let memories of your past get in the way of creating your future. You may be longing for an idyllic life, sipping champagne and watching a glorious sunset, but those bucolic dreams seem very far away right now. There's some heavy metaphysical lifting to be done today as you think about the cosmos and what you can do to change the world for the better.

I've got

no regrets.

A fresh start and a new face

mmmm I could get use to this ;)

:D

best weekend I have had in a really long time, by far.

Being happy is a good feeling, I hope it's here to stay.

Once said, always said.

I will hold the past over your head.
I'll speak my mind whenever I feel slighted.
I am hellbent on extracting all of my revenge.
Take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you.



I'm out of here, for good.