real vs fake

It's so hard to tell what is real in my life anymore. I'm happier than ever these days but I guess that's just because I lie to myself to stay that way. Well it's working and all these pills can go fuck themselves. I refuse to take them.

Even looking in your eyes feels wrong. Why do I want it to feel right?

Also, it's rather annoying how careless people are these days. Someone hit my car and now i have a dent in my passenger side door. What an asshole. I wonder how things would be if I was so careless in my actions. The world couldn't handle me then, it barely deals with me now as it is.

I've made some new friends recently and well they are alcoholics to say the least. It's pretty shitty when someone puts alcohol over you. Never again kid, Never again. You get one fuck up and you made yours already. I hope it was worth it.

Girls like me don't happen often, realize who I am and what I have to offer and please, please don't waste my time.


God, please give me some clarity. I can't take walking through this dense fog much longer.