PHILADELPHIA PHANTOMS beat the norfolk admirals tonighttt!
5 to 4 in over time with seconds left on the clock!
such a great gameeee :)


and then to top off the night
Holly and i went down to showcase after the game
and watched the last pitch of the world series
THE PHILLIES WON! <3

WOO!


mmm i love philly! <3

he sweet talks his way
between her thighs
kissing her neck
gazing in her eyes
tells her everything
she wants to hear
on her face
you see the fear
she's been wating
her whole life
to find out
what it feels like
to be in love
but it isn't real if it's just one night

I think i should take a step back
and take a look around
to realize what this all means

There's so much more to me than what's on the surface
I sometimes wonder if anyone really sees it
in my eyes
or hears it
in the way that i talk
If anyone can tell by the look on my face
and the look in my eyes
that there is more than meets their eye

I've been holding back so much
I want to be able to let go
but i can't and i wish i knew why
why i was holding back
why i wasn't just doing
what i want
when i want
and how i want


I just want to scream from the top of my lungs
until i get through to you
until i can make you feel what i feel

because you'll never understand me until you do

I'm going to break your walls down
i hope you are ready
ready to feel alive and believe things can work
regardless of what your mind may think
I'm going to make your heart feel

I just hope you are ready
and you can handle
everything i'm ready to offer

I found what i've been looking for all this time
and i found it the moment i looked into your eyes.

<3

I want to experience things i never have before.

Take it how you want it, it's open for interpretation.

Call me crazy but
is it wrong to want stability in my life?

I just like being settled down, i've never been much of someone to just do random things and party like crazy. I mean i've done my fair share of partying and going out but really when it comes down to it...i'd rather be at home with my boy rather than out with a bunch of random people.

Everytime i talk about how i want stability and how i want to be settled down i hear the same thing, "you're too young to be settled down".

However, I really don't think age has anything to do with it.

Great mood! =]

Today has just been...great! ha which is really random because i didn't really do much of anything today. I woke up and didn't go to class until one, went to the post office and then came home. I am just in a really great mood today and i am thinking the cause of all of this is last night. =]

Time apart makes you appriciate the time you spend together so much more.
even if it was only 4 days. haha <3


Who needs a title anyway?

Starting again

I had a blog awhile back and i haven't used it in forever. I have decided to start "blogging" again due to the fact that i have been writing a lot recently.


I find it all a bit too funny how people who don't even know me try to tell me how i should be living my life. It would be one thing if we were close and you were putting your two cents in but i don't even know you..therefore...carry your opinion somewhere else because it is pretty much meaningless to me.

I don't know if i have just changed a lot or all my friends have gone crazy recently but i feel like i am growing up a lot faster than they are. I just can't deal with people being rude or constantly complaining. I'm not like that and i don't expect other people to be that way towards me. But then again..no one is ever equal when it comes to me it seems. I always put myself out there and put everything i have into something and people just take it for granted. Sometimes i wonder if i am just too nice. My biggest flaw, in my eyes, is the fact that i will almost always look past the bad in people and focus on the good. Many people tell me that isn't a flaw however, it is when it is hurting me in return. I just don't know anymore.
blah. whatever.
I just feel like you should try and be considerate of other people's feelings when saying things. I mean you might be mad but think about if you really even have a right to be mad to begin with, ya know? Or if it's not even them you are mad at but just that you are taking your frustration out on them because they are around.Maybe i just think completely different from everyone i know. I don't know. But i am realizing more and more each day that the people who have been my friends for so long are starting to fall short.But maybe its just me. Maybe i am really the one who is changing and i am the problem..i just don't know. But i highy doubt it's me that is the issue within all of this.

If you are going to get mad about me saying how i feel then so be it. I am not going to hold back my feelings..it only destroys me on the inside if i do. This isn't about one person it is about everyone in general so don't take everything to heart.

On another note:
Why do people always try to ruin the good things i have going on in my life? I mean really.What the hell did i ever do that was so bad to you that you feel like you have the right to ruin things in my life? Branden is completely amazing and he makes me really happy. So why can't everyone just be happy for me, us? But regardless of what anyone has to say, we have something worth holding on to and we plan on doing just that. You can't break us so don't try. I don't wanna hear about how i can do better or blah blah. There isn't better. He is all i want. So stop with your jealous comments because he's got my heart and you don't. It isn't helping you any..if anything it's only making you that much more unattractive.


I know i make you nervous but i promise you i'm worth it. <3



Take heart, sweetheart.