Starting again

I had a blog awhile back and i haven't used it in forever. I have decided to start "blogging" again due to the fact that i have been writing a lot recently.


I find it all a bit too funny how people who don't even know me try to tell me how i should be living my life. It would be one thing if we were close and you were putting your two cents in but i don't even know you..therefore...carry your opinion somewhere else because it is pretty much meaningless to me.

I don't know if i have just changed a lot or all my friends have gone crazy recently but i feel like i am growing up a lot faster than they are. I just can't deal with people being rude or constantly complaining. I'm not like that and i don't expect other people to be that way towards me. But then again..no one is ever equal when it comes to me it seems. I always put myself out there and put everything i have into something and people just take it for granted. Sometimes i wonder if i am just too nice. My biggest flaw, in my eyes, is the fact that i will almost always look past the bad in people and focus on the good. Many people tell me that isn't a flaw however, it is when it is hurting me in return. I just don't know anymore.
blah. whatever.
I just feel like you should try and be considerate of other people's feelings when saying things. I mean you might be mad but think about if you really even have a right to be mad to begin with, ya know? Or if it's not even them you are mad at but just that you are taking your frustration out on them because they are around.Maybe i just think completely different from everyone i know. I don't know. But i am realizing more and more each day that the people who have been my friends for so long are starting to fall short.But maybe its just me. Maybe i am really the one who is changing and i am the problem..i just don't know. But i highy doubt it's me that is the issue within all of this.

If you are going to get mad about me saying how i feel then so be it. I am not going to hold back my feelings..it only destroys me on the inside if i do. This isn't about one person it is about everyone in general so don't take everything to heart.

On another note:
Why do people always try to ruin the good things i have going on in my life? I mean really.What the hell did i ever do that was so bad to you that you feel like you have the right to ruin things in my life? Branden is completely amazing and he makes me really happy. So why can't everyone just be happy for me, us? But regardless of what anyone has to say, we have something worth holding on to and we plan on doing just that. You can't break us so don't try. I don't wanna hear about how i can do better or blah blah. There isn't better. He is all i want. So stop with your jealous comments because he's got my heart and you don't. It isn't helping you any..if anything it's only making you that much more unattractive.


I know i make you nervous but i promise you i'm worth it. <3



Take heart, sweetheart.