I haven't had this much fun in a while. I've missed my friends, a lot. It was nice seeing everyone again last night that I haven't seen in quite some time. It is going to be happening more often from here on out.

I am also starting to appriciate the little things that I use to take for granted. My mom made me hot chocolate this morning. (: She does a lot of little things that I tend to not thank her for. She is the best!

It's easy to just get so in routine and pass by all the little things. I'm glad I am realizing this now rather than later. I know I will miss them when they are gone but I am hoping that they are around for quie a while. (:

I can't wait to have my best friend back home for a week. It has been almost a year, way too long. I am so stoked! JuJu<3


I wanted more from this..




edit;;;
Britani had her baby today! (: I am going to go see her later on, i'm excited.

Pick and Choose Your Battles

Someone once told me that when it comes to relationships you have to pick your battles because some things just work themselves out in time. You just have to figure out what is worth dealing with alone so that the end result will be better and what is worth trying to talk about it but we all know that talking with men never goes over well. They will always point the finger back to you, you just have to be strong enough to know that no matter what is said and done you stood up for yourself and what you thought was the problem. Don't even let a man tell you that you are dumb for being bothered by something. They can't always see the bigger picture and almost never see things from your point of view.

It makes a lot of sense really when I think about it and look at past relationships, my current one and other people's relationships.

It's time I learn when to keep my mouth shut and when to speak up. Clearly I always get the two mixed up..




This is when you take a step back and ask yourself,
"Is this what I really want with my life?"

He loves me, He loves me NOT

It's time I slow down

and stop caring so much and just have fun.

I don't want to be so serious, this to be so serious.

So from here on out, It's just fun.

I'm done holding back, judge me all you want to. (:

the way to win my heart. (:
mmmmmm

I guess I'm not putting enough effort into this

because the efforts I am making

are clearly going unnoticed.

I really am trying, I just wish you could see it too.

I FEEL LIKE A PIECE OF MEAT!

Lately everytime I sign on Myspace or Facebook all I have is a full inbox of messages from weridos.

WTF?

They all start by saying " I think you are so beautiful (or sexy) I would love to get to know you"

First of all, fuck the word sexy. I hate that word.
Second, they only want to get to know me because of how I look.
For all they know that isn't even my real picture. Maybe im 5'3 and 250 lbs.
I enjoy trips to mcdonalds about three times a day and I have no job and don't go to school so basically I am a waste of space because all I do is eat and sit around on my rather large ass all damn day.

Fuck. I am so over it.

I don't give a fuck about who you are or what you do for fun or in your spare time. I am in no way interested in you or what you have to offer. (esp since most of these guys are atleast 6 years older than me)

I have the most amazing person in my life currently and I don't want or need anyone else.

I just wish all these people would leave me alone. It is so annoying and all of the messages are basically the same. Telling me i'm pretty and asking for my number and if we can hangout. NO BITCH, YOU CAN'T HAVE MY NUMBER AND YOU WILL NEVER EVER HAVE A CHANCE WITH ME.

I must look like a skeeze or something, I don't know. I mean, I'm not even that pretty to begin with.

I love when people take pictures of me sleeping.

Finally

taking the steps needed to start getting my life in order.

I couldn't be any more excited! (:

I just have to make it through this semester and then I am done with TCC and on my way to Massage Therapy.

No one is going to stop me this time. I am done letting other people control my life and what I do with it. It's time for me to step up. If you don't like it then you can kick rocks, as Branden would say. haha

(:

so stoked!

However, I will end up back in school to get my degree in Business it's just going to take me a while.