Biggest realization ever

words are meaningless as fuck. I just realized a lot while sitting at work today and you know, I can honestly say....I am completely happy with the way things turned out. I've wanted this for a long time and I finally have my freedom back. I wont give that up for anyone, ever again. You've changed a lot inside of me and I don't know if I will ever forgive you for the negative influence you have had on me. I'm ok and I am going to be ok. I know who I am and what I want and this isn't it.

He was right, I'm so much better off. It's funny how life happens sometimes. Ohh but I am so glad this chapter in my life is over and a new one is starting! (: There was a reason this played out the way it did and I wouldn't give it up for the world.

You saved me.


"Why me?" you asked. To be honest, I can't even begin to tell you. It was just a caught up in the moment kind of thing. I wasn't lying to you when I said,"As much as I want this, I'm just not THAT girl." I don't regret anything I just wish it was under different circumstances. You're a really great guy despite the common misconception of a lot of people. You've been there for me through a few hardships that I have had recently and I can't thank you enough for that. You've been my saving grace and I guess that's why I enjoy your company so much. It's nice knowing someone cares enough to listen....I haven't really had that lately. <3