It hurts a whole lot

but it's missed when it's gone...


I don't think people ever really want you to be as honest as they say they do.
Because deep down, it feels good to be so open and honest but people just can't take the truth.

I can honestly say that I have nothing to hide from anyone and even more so...
I HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE ANYMORE.

I'm tired of being a mess.
and I keep creating bigger ones.

Call it what you want
but I know what it was.
What it is.

I just wish you did.

People will always hold my past over my head. Even my friends do it. Sorry that everyone thinks I'm such a horrible person. At least I have one person who relates...I just wish I could take the advice that I give to him about it. I'm so good with giving advice but I am horrible at taking my own. That's an art I would be ever so grateful to perfect. Maybe one day I will get it right. As for now, I am finding myself and developing who I am. I don't hate myself, I love myself. There is definitely some serious room for improvement though.

I'm just taking things one day at a time. That's all I can do. Trying to remain positive these days is such a hard task.