good friends

I think what I have missed the most are my good friends. I've been surrounding myself with such amazing people recently. The best part is, they are all of my old friends. I've missed them so much. Cassie and I have been hanging out more and more and even though it's always me giving her advice and her being on the phone the entire time, haha I miss it. Jay and Justin being home at the same time was just unreal. Words can't even begin to explain how happy I was to see them again. They have both grown up so much but regardless of where the military make take them we will always stay close. I love those two more than I could ever say. It's been years since I've seen a lot of the other people I've been hanging out with and it feels good. They knew me back before my life was as crazy as it is now and they aren't judgemental at all. I miss being around people who don't judge my every movement, word or even breath I take. They enjoy me for me and that's a nice feeling.

Also, as much as I've been going out recently, I have met a lot of really interesting new people. It's been a nice variety really. I've even met some really cool girls that I wouldn't mind hanging out with. I'm just having fun, innocent fun. That's all I'm looking for for a while.


"You've been in a relationship for the last five years, it's time to go out and have fun. I'm not saying sleep with everyone you meet or anything but engage in good conversation and good company. You only live once you know..."

I'm 21 years old and have been in constant relationships since I was 16. I need to do this for me. I was starting to feel like I couldn't be on my own, it's a good feeling knowing I can. Next time I decide to put myself all out there for someone I hope it's for real. As for now...I don't want or need anyone of that significance in my life. Not to mention I am way too busy to have the time for it.

<3 I miss Justin and Jay so much already. I love you boys, and I am so proud of the two of you. Thank you for everything you do and I can't wait to see you in JUNE ! <3 xo



ps. they are right, I am !