controversy

My therapist says she thinks that I have perfected the art of pushing someone away.

I have to stop getting scared or I'll destroy everyone.

Where do i start to turn myself around, how can it go back?
How do I clean up the mess I've made?

It's crazy to think that something that happened so long ago is still effecting my actions today. It's been years upon years and I'm still not over what happened.

One day I'll accept it and move on, one day...

Having someone pull you apart to find reasons for your actions really sucks but it helped a lot actually.

ugh, I just don't know anymore.