I've learned

that I am not as strong as I thought I was. I can tell myself all day that I don't feel the way I do or the things I do but in the end....I still always will. I can't push out feelings, I've tried and tried and tried. I fail every time. I'm accepting that though. I have come to realize that I can't because I don't want to. It's what I really want, no matter what I may continue to tell myself. I'm okay with having these feelings, even if they are one sided. It's a gray area...but I think I am starting to see some color shine through. I haven't been this happy in a while, I hope it lingers for quite some time, it's a good feeling.

One simple touch and all my problems fade. When I'm not there, all I want is to be there...with you. <3