In order to find myself..I lost myself, for a little bit. I've made mistakes and I am learning from them. Some of which have only hurt myself. Some have caused me to hurt other around me. Everyone makes mistakes and dumb decisions...It's all about what you gain from the experience, in my opinion at least.

I guess when someone tells you something for so long
after a while you start to believe and live by it. Well, not anymore..I'm so much better than that, so much better than you. For years I've let the things you said and did get to me and float around in the back of my mind. I'm done, it's time to let go and get on with things and stop being scared. I can't keep living my life like this.

It's time to bury this...for good. You can't tell me who I am when you've never known. One night doesn't mean shit in my book especially not when you robbed me of my innocence. I'll always hate you and the person you became for all of the things you did to me. I just have one question...why now? Why at all for that matter? If you really want to say sorry then just stay away from me and stay out of my life. Don't come around and don't try to talk to me. I want nothing to do with you, nothing has changed and it never will. I wont ever forgive you, give it up.

I had forgotten what it felt like to feel alive...
For the first time in a long time, I can remember. I haven't felt safe with someone in such a long time. It's a good feeling...a really good feeling. <3

I wont let you take that away from me.