"It's about the nights we spent locked up inside your room it's about the morning breaking always just a bit too soon it's about the way you're scared baby, just maybe I'm aware this is what you need 'cause every time you walk in the room can't help myself i wanna be with you"
This weekend has been very uneventful and completely lame. Last night was...weird? I guess that can be used to describe it, it'll do I suppose. I don't know. I just really got the vibe you didn't wanna be around me, if that was the case you should have just said so. Even though i waited in my car twenty five minutes for you to get home even though you told me to come over, but ya know...for the first time in my life i actually thought before I spoke and controlled my attitude. You must be something special because I've never done that for anyone. I'm actually really happy about it. I proved a lot to myself by doing so and I hope i proved something to you as well. I hope you can see the effort I am putting into us this time around. It's taken me this long but I really am..
Something that has really gotten to me lately is the fact that I am always the one initiating us spending time together. I'm sure it seems dumb but 8 times out of 10 it's ME asking YOU to hangout...it sort of makes me think that if I never asked you to hangout we never would. I don't know, maybe I am just being dumb. Who knows.
Ugh, I hope we make it through all of the struggles and insecurities. It's worth it to me, and it's a lot to ask but I hope you too feel the same.
Oh, my friends...they suck,
By the way.
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