Ramblings

It really is time that we distance ourselves. I just can't even take having a phone conversation anymore. It makes me sad to think that we are falling apart but even if we are, we've had a good run to say the least. I've had times with you that I will never forget and you have always been there for me, for the most part atleast. Up until recetly really. I don't know. I mean people grow up and grow apart, its natural I guess. I miss how things used to be really but i'm afraid we are a little to far "gone" to ever get that back now. I still love you and always will. You've been a decent friend. I really am hoping that having some time to ourselves will better our relationship in the long run.

OTHER WORDS:
I really can't complain right now. Everything is looking up for the most part.

CHUBB is finally coming through for me. It is about time, i've only been working here for three and a half years now. I really love everyone I work with. They are pretty much my second family. I mean, I spend just as much, if not more, time with them as I do my real family. I've gotten really close to some of my co-workers. I'd be sad to leave them all behind but one day I will have to. I finally got a raise. I owe Jamie coffee when she gets back from Hawaii for getting me one. haha As much as I am hating the fact that I am growing up, I am actually quite excited about being hired on full time after this semester is over. It will be something new considering I will be doing a lot of new things. The pay increase is also going to be something I am really looking forward to. I don't know, I've grown up around the "chubb community" It's a part of me and has made a huge difference in my life thus far.

Things with Branden have been well for the most part. We are working through a lot right now, well not really a lot but something sort of big. I have faith though. I am working really hard on being a better person, I hope he can see it. I almost slipped up last night and said something that I know I would have kicked myself for saying later. I wouldn't regret it because it is the most honest thing I've ever wanted to say to anyone but I just can't. I'm glad I caught myself. He really is the most amazing person I have ever met and If he only knew how I felt....

one day..


Well, its time for our luncheon at work.
:)


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