It's time for you to choose

the bullet or the chapstick.

I have been listening to brand new a lot recently. I would have to say that they are probably my favorite band. They just never get old. I could listen to them for days on end, well I have been...

I really am hoping that this doesn't end. I'm not ready for it to be over just yet. I am going to do what I can to make this better and I know you will too. There has been a lot of drama since you and I got involved with one another...I am hoping we can fix all of that, soon. I have a wall built up so high, I need to let go and I am going to. I want to let you in, I really do. I am just scared...I don't feel safe but I guess I never really will...not anytime soon anyway. "Never let fear hold you back" <---- I'm going to try not to from here on out. I am going to put a lot of effort into that...I just hope you realize this. I'm difficult and stubborn and complex. I know this is hard for you so I am going to do what I can to make it easier on you on my behalf. Truth is, I care a lot more than you think I do or I act like I do...I just don't express it because I'd rather you not know. Guess I better start showing it.